I live in a house not my house that
houses a man who is not my man.
I care for children I did not conceive and
conceive children I cannot care for.
I love these babies I cannot feed yet
feed forkfuls to another woman's babies I cannot love.
I speak a language that says nothing to me and
say nothing, to others, in my native tongue.
I wash clothes I do not wear and
wear clothes too worn to wash.
I prepare food I cannot eat yet
eat food not fit to prepare.
I clean a toilet in which I cannot pee and
pee in a toilet that will never be clean.
I ride buses taking me where I want never to go yet
never find a bus to take me where I need to go.
I witness crimes I report and commit no
crimes but am reported, deported, fined and told never to return.
My dreaming eyes depict a town littered with people
my eyes hold no more.
-- Lisa Marie Sandoval
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